Facts

The difference between the mind I have now and the mind that I want is that in the mind that I want, there isn't a single question that isn't answered and everything is at ease and everything can be pulled together from facts that I or someone else have gained by taking a look at the world around us. Building a foundation on facts is what makes the foundation hold what's built upon it and what makes people stand on it, not biased faith learned from your surroundings or brought to you in some mysterious enlightenment. Although, in my own experiences, mysterious enlightenments are what have driven me to some of my most major decisions and why, because my emotions told me it was the right thing to do? What kind of authority does emotion have on my life, especially since emotion is almost always bias? I have cried for worth, and I have longed for meaning, and I have waited for a moment in my life where I do feel as though I have the mind I want rather than the mind I have and in those moments, I was truly happy. I feel as though I would rather listen to my emotions and have blind faith than listen to the facts of this world because who says the facts are actually factual? People? The only thing in this world that makes a fact true are the people who support it and the people who make the facts up, and if people are the epicenter for truth, and I am a person, then why cant my emotions, and my faith be the most factual things in my life? If I want to believe something is true, why can't it be true? Who's to say that someone else's opinion on a certain topic is more relevant that my own opinion? Everything learned in the world was learned from someone that learned something from someone else. What gives us miniscule humans the right to place labels on things and call them by our own names when in reality, we know nothing about this universe? The only things we do know were created by us. We decided that this is the way things are because these are the only theories we can wrap our minds around, and because as humans, since we are the smartest species on the only planet with with living, breathing beings, there is no other possible way things happen in this universe because nothing is bigger than us and nothing can top what we have thought of. In a world where human thought is driven by what we know because of humans, the only thing that I can believe in is my own faith, because in my own faith, I am not the biggest being. In my own faith, questions are answered and I live with the mind I want, rather than the mind I have.